i miss u.

i guess this is kinda secret place for myself where not even a single ppl will still rmb... i just dunno where can i talk my feelings out. i am in army, stress. brokw up with the girl i love, she dun wanna reply my msges. i feel sad, uphappy. but i cant post this on facebook. i wanna tell someone, but no ones there. i miss her. i love her. she knows, she ignores, she dun want me anymore. i just need her by my side, i just need her. but why isnt she.... i love spending time with her, but now, she's more happy with her friends. i want her to know that i still cares, i still misses, but i dun wanna disturb er life. there maybe other guys started woo-ing her, i cant do anything, coz she's no longer my gf. no longer. i want her to be my gf. why is it so difficult. why do i have to be always pretending to be strong when i'm not, why do i always have to be the one leading the atmosphere, why cant i just sit down, and people coming to me, giving me what i want. i just wanna a simple life, with gf and good friends, is it too much to ask for? Karma life, maybe? God, please help me... save me. i am really, really really tired, i just these simple things.